The whole Malaysia now is debating the issue of death penalty.
Claims as what if those whom are in death row are your friends, families, or relatives?
Come to the mind that people who had committed the crime will change, and eventually might be a better person is subjective.
If those whom had committed the crime that will have death penalty (murder, drug trafficking), had thought of how many lives they might had spoiled or killed for committing such crimes, they would not be facing the death penalty now.
If they were to said that they are naive, young, or not in the state of mind, they should have seek help.
How many lives of those people whom they suffered from drugs, be it their friends, families or relatives? Drug did not kill instantly, but it slowly drive the society to more crime, and more lives will be taken. That's why death penalty were there to serve those culprits.
However, not to forget those cases that might be happened where those traffickers were tricked into doing it. They are forced to do so, or they did not realised that they are carrying drugs. Those cases happened all around the world, and yet, the real culprit still walking free, while those whom were innocent served the penalty.
The legal systems indeed will not serve justice for all. It will not speak for all. Nonetheless, we should bear in mind that, if we do not wanted to be in such penalty, why we committed the crime at the first?
Therefore, proper punishment that will kept people form committing it is necessary. If there aren't such penalty, there will be even more and more crimes involving drugs and murder.
Please remember that the drug trafficker that requested for clemency isn't too young to think of the consequences of drug trafficking. If the lawyer uses excuses such as the client was young and naive, did not know what he is doing, but what about he knowing that this is wrong? What about he knowing that this is illegal? What about knowing that he earned a lot from such a way, that his earning of those money are from other poor family that they steal, rob, or kill for the purpose to purchase drugs?
Think about it....
Sunday, 29 August 2010
Tuesday, 10 August 2010
I am just a human....
All I wanted you to know, I am a human too. I have feeling too. I felt hurt too. I felt abandoned too.
It's not just you....
I know I made a lot of mistake, a lot of bad behaviour, a lot of non-sense, a lot a lot more of sadden news.
But.....
Do you ever think of me? Do you ever consider my feeling too? Do you ever put yourself in my shoe to weight the incidents?
I read your blog too. I know I had caused much hurt to you. Made you to have a thought of your journey was alone. Caused you to think that I am not worth.
You asked me, not to make decision for you, not to choose for you, consider of your feeling, consider of your rights....
All I asked was for you to consider my feeling too. I know I might not be that hurt, my feeling will not be that hurt, if I did not care for you, if I am just a by passer.
But I aren't a by passer. I could not just stand and watch...
Congratualation! You had successfully made my heart break as well...
If reading your blog had caused me to felt so much pain, for I don't really want to hurt you....
I am not making my blog to be a pain for you. I want you to know that I AM JUST A HUMAN. PLEASE consider my feeling too!
It's not just you....
I know I made a lot of mistake, a lot of bad behaviour, a lot of non-sense, a lot a lot more of sadden news.
But.....
Do you ever think of me? Do you ever consider my feeling too? Do you ever put yourself in my shoe to weight the incidents?
I read your blog too. I know I had caused much hurt to you. Made you to have a thought of your journey was alone. Caused you to think that I am not worth.
You asked me, not to make decision for you, not to choose for you, consider of your feeling, consider of your rights....
All I asked was for you to consider my feeling too. I know I might not be that hurt, my feeling will not be that hurt, if I did not care for you, if I am just a by passer.
But I aren't a by passer. I could not just stand and watch...
Congratualation! You had successfully made my heart break as well...
If reading your blog had caused me to felt so much pain, for I don't really want to hurt you....
I am not making my blog to be a pain for you. I want you to know that I AM JUST A HUMAN. PLEASE consider my feeling too!
Sunday, 30 May 2010
Devastating life in research
It had been some time, that I really have not blog. Not putting any writing, due to some cases that happened to me.
Sad to say, I totally felt wrecked, and devastated. The whole sh*t that happened seems to be all my fault, and I am to be blamed.
I would like people from other places to know, that certain company(s) are just full of sh*t when they are established in Msia. I would not wanted to name the company, due to the previous slamming of blogging the company unprofessional-ism. I found it unfair, unjustified. Why I am suppose to be at fault, when every factors that I had mentioned before had contributed to the missing item.
Well, not to make matter worst, I had to delete the blog. I still kept it with the other private blog, as draft. I would not wanted that incident in my diary to be wiped off.
On the other hand, I had this incident that I would like to share. The incident that happened to me, and I felt that I should have let other to know about it. (Some had been told regarding to this incident, so please bear with me.)
My boss at M.u here did something that is very unfair to me. I was rushing for the writing up for a progress presentation in the middle of May, and due to my own fault, I sort of submitted the writing late to the P.i and I was indeed the person to be at blame. However, three days before the due date submission to the uni, I had send in a draft in soft copt to both P.i and the P.i at M.u replied to me via sms that I should have added the portion discussion, even though it was unfinished research. So, be it. I wrote up a discussion until the recent part that had been accomplished, and trying to keep up with the pace, so that I can be able to submit it on time. I quickly find the p.i at M.u and lend the soft copy for the p.i to copy. Afterwards, the P.i only mentioned that the result portion needed to have some adjustment, and add in a bit more for the result, which had previously been done, but failed to proceed. As instructed, before heading back to the lab to continue with the extra work, I asked if the rest of the written work is ok for the P.i? And you know what I get for the answer? The P.i said, you wait until the other P.i to reply you, for me, it was ok-lah, hor? I was kind of wondering, if he had read the introduction portion and the methodology...And, the wondering finally revealed, after 3 days later...
The P.i at the other side called and asked me together with the P.i here to meet up. Once reached the office, I was told that the writing was terribly bad, especially the introduction portion. I was speechless, and I had had the written work submitted due to time constrain, I could not wait for the P.i on the other side to comment. (The p.i on the other side, was apparently quite busy with the schedule, and had no time to read up the finalised written work.) So, I guess since that was just a progress presentation for me, and in fact, the form for submission written, to submit only a 100 word summary of the research's progress. I did the extra work, because following the current Master student whom also recently submitted the written work. The MSc student claimed that 100 words summary could not allow to explain the whole situation until the recent work. So, the MSc student wrote more, and submitted it as a PhD candidature written submission.
I was not blaming her that I had to follow the same procedure of writing. The school itself, also hired an acting research manager that did not tolerate late submission, and the ACT wanted the written submission to be perfect, which look like a PhD candidature submission. And, so be it. I wrote up something to satisfy them. Little did I know that this will landed me into deep trouble.
The P.i on the other side complained that I did not have enough reading, which was true. I admit it was kind of last minute work, and I indeed lack of the reading knowledge. As such, I actually listen to what the p.i on the other side commented. Sadly as in, once the p.i on the other side commented, the Pi over here said that the introduction portion indeed was badly written. Should not put like this, that...bla..bla...bla... and until I felt so disappointed. Excuse me, may I know who did say like "the rest you wait for the other side p.i to comment and as for me, should be ok-lah, hor?" This is how contradictory the p.i over here reacted, when meeting up. The most devastating moment was when both p.i said that I am not the material to work up with science. They said, should have done more reading, and this and that. Right! The reading session, was indeed my fault. I am just a person whom cannot read. Please do not continue humiliating me as in, I am such a loser compare to other in the research field. I am such a blacksheep that had came into the M.u. And I am such a low quality student, compare to the rest of the other students, not even can compare with a second year student from M.u. Alright. I am such a loser. I am such a blacksheep. I am such a low quality person. But this is human. I am not GOD. I am not 100% perfect. If I were to be compare from human to human, where is the justification?
My p.i from M.u could not help me. My p.i from the other side did not trust me. What can I do? Pretend that nothing had happened and just keep it to myself? Yes, I will pretend that I can take these things up, and will move on as quickly as I could, but at the same time, I want to let people know that, this is how you will be treated, when you had lost your value. Welcome to the society. Welcome to the dog-eat-dog world. Welcome to the life, where only boss is right and everything you did is wrong.
I did not ask for complement. I did not ask for praise. I did not even dare to ask for their help, due to these incident. Now, I am communicating with other researcher that can enlighten me, that can show me or at least, can light up my way in research field. For I am not trust-able in the mind and eyes of my both p.i(s), everything I do, will become a disaster. (I might be wrong, but tell me, when people did not trust you anymore, will they let you be? Will they teach and guide you?)
I did not ask to have everything perfectly with me, but at least, do not just use me, and then, when I had no more value, I am just being dumped like I am a rubbish. For your information, I am not a rubbish.
Sad to say, I totally felt wrecked, and devastated. The whole sh*t that happened seems to be all my fault, and I am to be blamed.
I would like people from other places to know, that certain company(s) are just full of sh*t when they are established in Msia. I would not wanted to name the company, due to the previous slamming of blogging the company unprofessional-ism. I found it unfair, unjustified. Why I am suppose to be at fault, when every factors that I had mentioned before had contributed to the missing item.
Well, not to make matter worst, I had to delete the blog. I still kept it with the other private blog, as draft. I would not wanted that incident in my diary to be wiped off.
On the other hand, I had this incident that I would like to share. The incident that happened to me, and I felt that I should have let other to know about it. (Some had been told regarding to this incident, so please bear with me.)
My boss at M.u here did something that is very unfair to me. I was rushing for the writing up for a progress presentation in the middle of May, and due to my own fault, I sort of submitted the writing late to the P.i and I was indeed the person to be at blame. However, three days before the due date submission to the uni, I had send in a draft in soft copt to both P.i and the P.i at M.u replied to me via sms that I should have added the portion discussion, even though it was unfinished research. So, be it. I wrote up a discussion until the recent part that had been accomplished, and trying to keep up with the pace, so that I can be able to submit it on time. I quickly find the p.i at M.u and lend the soft copy for the p.i to copy. Afterwards, the P.i only mentioned that the result portion needed to have some adjustment, and add in a bit more for the result, which had previously been done, but failed to proceed. As instructed, before heading back to the lab to continue with the extra work, I asked if the rest of the written work is ok for the P.i? And you know what I get for the answer? The P.i said, you wait until the other P.i to reply you, for me, it was ok-lah, hor? I was kind of wondering, if he had read the introduction portion and the methodology...And, the wondering finally revealed, after 3 days later...
The P.i at the other side called and asked me together with the P.i here to meet up. Once reached the office, I was told that the writing was terribly bad, especially the introduction portion. I was speechless, and I had had the written work submitted due to time constrain, I could not wait for the P.i on the other side to comment. (The p.i on the other side, was apparently quite busy with the schedule, and had no time to read up the finalised written work.) So, I guess since that was just a progress presentation for me, and in fact, the form for submission written, to submit only a 100 word summary of the research's progress. I did the extra work, because following the current Master student whom also recently submitted the written work. The MSc student claimed that 100 words summary could not allow to explain the whole situation until the recent work. So, the MSc student wrote more, and submitted it as a PhD candidature written submission.
I was not blaming her that I had to follow the same procedure of writing. The school itself, also hired an acting research manager that did not tolerate late submission, and the ACT wanted the written submission to be perfect, which look like a PhD candidature submission. And, so be it. I wrote up something to satisfy them. Little did I know that this will landed me into deep trouble.
The P.i on the other side complained that I did not have enough reading, which was true. I admit it was kind of last minute work, and I indeed lack of the reading knowledge. As such, I actually listen to what the p.i on the other side commented. Sadly as in, once the p.i on the other side commented, the Pi over here said that the introduction portion indeed was badly written. Should not put like this, that...bla..bla...bla... and until I felt so disappointed. Excuse me, may I know who did say like "the rest you wait for the other side p.i to comment and as for me, should be ok-lah, hor?" This is how contradictory the p.i over here reacted, when meeting up. The most devastating moment was when both p.i said that I am not the material to work up with science. They said, should have done more reading, and this and that. Right! The reading session, was indeed my fault. I am just a person whom cannot read. Please do not continue humiliating me as in, I am such a loser compare to other in the research field. I am such a blacksheep that had came into the M.u. And I am such a low quality student, compare to the rest of the other students, not even can compare with a second year student from M.u. Alright. I am such a loser. I am such a blacksheep. I am such a low quality person. But this is human. I am not GOD. I am not 100% perfect. If I were to be compare from human to human, where is the justification?
My p.i from M.u could not help me. My p.i from the other side did not trust me. What can I do? Pretend that nothing had happened and just keep it to myself? Yes, I will pretend that I can take these things up, and will move on as quickly as I could, but at the same time, I want to let people know that, this is how you will be treated, when you had lost your value. Welcome to the society. Welcome to the dog-eat-dog world. Welcome to the life, where only boss is right and everything you did is wrong.
I did not ask for complement. I did not ask for praise. I did not even dare to ask for their help, due to these incident. Now, I am communicating with other researcher that can enlighten me, that can show me or at least, can light up my way in research field. For I am not trust-able in the mind and eyes of my both p.i(s), everything I do, will become a disaster. (I might be wrong, but tell me, when people did not trust you anymore, will they let you be? Will they teach and guide you?)
I did not ask to have everything perfectly with me, but at least, do not just use me, and then, when I had no more value, I am just being dumped like I am a rubbish. For your information, I am not a rubbish.
Saturday, 22 May 2010
Lock this blog
I had decided to lock the blog, even though it might not be so nice, and it will be very cumbersome to other reader; this is one of the way to prevent some certain persons that I do not wish them to read my blog by using blogger.
Wordpress did has the advantages of having password lock to certain post directly using their setting, however, due to some certain reasons, I will still stick with blogger. Just that I will have to lock it until after I finished this study.
The previous blog had caused some controversial between supervisors and me. I guess, starting from that, they had develop suspicious and untrustworthy towards me. I know I am a disappointment. I am a failure to their eyes. They can criticise, but not humiliating me, not insulting me. They can comment on how bad am I, but they I hope they do not compare. There is a chinese saying that comparing of human to human, aren't comparable. I might not be a best material, and I also do not hope that I am in the worst. Who wanted to be the worst?!
I might not be pointing names, but those who know, please do not put the names in the comment. For those whom wanted to know, private message me, for details.
I would like to have this blog as my shout out, to let the whole world to know, after what had happened, after that blog entry.
All I wanted to write, is that I want all to know, I, myself is also just an ordinary human being, trying to fit in, for what had required by the society. If I were to take insult, humiliation; I guess, I do not have self-esteem. Do you, reader here would wanted to have your humiliation or insulation to be happened, and you still can pretend nothing happened?
I, myself, to be frank..... I can't.
That is why, from that time onwards, I had decided to lock this blog.
Wordpress did has the advantages of having password lock to certain post directly using their setting, however, due to some certain reasons, I will still stick with blogger. Just that I will have to lock it until after I finished this study.
The previous blog had caused some controversial between supervisors and me. I guess, starting from that, they had develop suspicious and untrustworthy towards me. I know I am a disappointment. I am a failure to their eyes. They can criticise, but not humiliating me, not insulting me. They can comment on how bad am I, but they I hope they do not compare. There is a chinese saying that comparing of human to human, aren't comparable. I might not be a best material, and I also do not hope that I am in the worst. Who wanted to be the worst?!
I might not be pointing names, but those who know, please do not put the names in the comment. For those whom wanted to know, private message me, for details.
I would like to have this blog as my shout out, to let the whole world to know, after what had happened, after that blog entry.
All I wanted to write, is that I want all to know, I, myself is also just an ordinary human being, trying to fit in, for what had required by the society. If I were to take insult, humiliation; I guess, I do not have self-esteem. Do you, reader here would wanted to have your humiliation or insulation to be happened, and you still can pretend nothing happened?
I, myself, to be frank..... I can't.
That is why, from that time onwards, I had decided to lock this blog.
Tuesday, 27 April 2010
I can do nothing about it.....
I suddenly have a thought of putting this up as a guide to all of us.
I wonder, will these consumer rights be applicable in Malaysia?
I had faced problem with clause 3, 4, 5 and 7.....
And guess what?
I have to keep the problems to myself, and could not get explanation from respective side*
I personally felt that my rights had been violated.....and I can do nothing about it.
I really can do nothing about it, which seems so pathetic, so terribly pathetic...
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I also read this, which was posted up at FOMCA website adapted from TheSun news.....which I felt true...
It's time to amend Consumer Protection Act, to make it fairer, and better.
Sunday, 18 April 2010
CURRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
When cold night strikes and raining thunder storm....
Yum....yum....yummy....
The curry laksa from Well Cook Gourmet
I ordered Bihun, instead of the yellow mee....
Check this out...Fried laksa... XD
you felt that you want to eat something.....
something that can keep you warm, and something that has the spice which will keep you up...
then....that's the time, you'll crave for....
CURRY.....!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!! I have a sudden urge to get curry laksa after raining cats and dogs in the evening time.
Luckily, I thought of the 'Well cook gourmet' at SS14 and there we go....the curry laksa from there.
Beside having curry laksa there, we also had the fried laksa, the'chef recommended' menu.
Yum....yum....yummy....
The curry laksa from Well Cook Gourmet
I ordered Bihun, instead of the yellow mee....I did not snap the picture for fried laksa...but posted hereby are the previous taken pictures...
Check this out...Fried laksa... XD
Wednesday, 14 April 2010
Life
The feeling for the past few days were.....excitement!
Well....
Went for sushi king RM2 day.... yum yum...
Then, went for Pasar Malam for the chee cheong funn....
Then, went for a vegetarian restaurant for yin yeung...
Well.... Foods!!! Foods!!!!
Beside that, I am liking the feeling that flow in too....
Great, at least life is not that bad after all...when your research not turning fine...
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