once and twice

Suddenly got the urge to make this out.

Once and twice.

You asked me once,

Will I ever turn back if I am let go?

You asked me twice,

Will I ever  say it-that I love you so?

Along the cold narrow street way,

I remembered the embrace you gave that day,

When you  hardly let me went  my way,

And I remembered it in everyday,

Walking  alone under the dim  moonlight,

And my own shadow accompany me by my side,

How cold it is to walk alone at night,

But I know I must  go on with my plight,

You asked me once,

Will I ever remember you in my heart?

You asked me twice,

Will I ever find my way in the dark?

And here I am now walking through the park,

Alone again in the dark,

I remembered how you guided me with your love,

And  now I learned to walk with love,

I would not be missing you and that's my promise,

But how I wish I could do it with all my mind,

And all that we had compromised,

How I wish I had put it aside and left behind,

And tell me now why my heart still drowning in tears?

And my living is still in fears?

I am asking not once and not twice,

Will there be answer for me in trice?

(Copyright reserved to Emmy Sau Peng Lee)

FFK

After my friend ffk last weekend for a yum cha session at Kampar, I felt like I am so sucked up. Not only me, ok...another friend of mine whom happen and suppose to be with us for the yum cha also felt the same towards this friend. It's not that you can't ffk. But make it a reasonable one, please? The pictures she posted already betrayed her, as in she ffk because she's with other group of friend to have a yum cha after a wedding dinner banquet. I called, but her phone can't be connected through due to the network blockage of her usage. I confronted her, the following Monday...and asked her why didn't bother just sms us to inform us for a call-off. She replied as her phone got problem, she didn't have one to do so. I asked can't she thought of borrowing one of the friends' phone to send out a sms? She replied that she didn't think of that!
WTF***!!! I definitely doubted it, but what to do...she is still my friend, even though she ffk like that.
Friend, before you ffk...better eliminate every evidence that you ffk for another group of friend. I don't mind as in we have numerous group of friends...I don't mind you go out yum cha session with them at that night, after the dinner. All I mind is that you didn't even bother to make a sms or a call for us to call off the yum cha, and keep us waiting! I hate waiting, you know. Plus...where's the apology?
Since already ffk, so, me and the other friend of mine plan to ask for a yum cha session, whereby it's her treat and of course...must be damn expensive!

luv

Talking about love...

And lets' talk about love then...

Why on earth, that there are people who only can think of love as in boy and girl relationship? Why on earth there are people who only treasure the moment of love with their so-called loved one in the relationship? Couldn't they think of, there is other love existed? Love is so beautiful, so divine, so generous, so patience...yet love is passionating, love provoking, and love demanding...

As people who can only think of love in the relationship way...I guess...this is such a shallow thinking...yet might been caused by the blindness in relationship. When someone is in relationship..especially in the phrase that the love blossom and passionate each other...the rest of the world means nothing to them. In their eyes, they can only see each other, in their eyes, they can only see their life, in their eyes, they can only see their love...

They forgot about the 'love is divine, love is generous'... Families, friends, pets and so many more become a secondary structure to their life...their primary structure is their love. I bet, by this...no wonder people can say out in chinese saying 'you ching yum shui bau'. Of course, not everyone is like this...this is also refering to certain people...or certain types of people.

Somehow...people questioned me, on why I look on so seriously for the 'Love' word. I treasure the 'love'. I treasure love from my families, I treasure love from my friends...I even treasure the most...love from m pets. I lost them...quite a number of time...I knew the moment you lost someone or something so precious to you...So, I really takes in every minute. For me, even though love in boy-girl relationship is important...as this will draw to a new family, a new life, a new beginning, a new chapter, a new world...but...love is yet so divine...it suppose not to be so focused on boy-girl relationship.

Saying I love you to you families, your friends and even pets doesn't make you looked insane. It's just cultural environment in the east didn't practice this well enough...as by this, we are lack of confident to show our love to those that we really treasure. Westerners are far more open into this. They teaching and practice for this loving act is indeed good and inspiring. We should have say I love you...to each other...

I think I should...

I always say I love you to my dog...though. I talk to my dog. Sounds silly, and crazy or maybe someone will think I am a physco...talking with a dog? I enjoy my moment talking to my dog...more than having conversation with my siblings...and parents...somehow...I can become talkative when I seeing friends that are sharing the same channel. I even will treasure them more...

Talk about the 3 words, I still hesitate to say it out, to other...anyway...I am trying. Trying to be a lovingly person to my friends, hmm...notice this...i didn't mentioned family though. I have a wall of my own...whereby I had built it for such a long time. I seldom speak with my family member, you can actually count our words.  You will see they way I treat my friends is far more better than the way I treated my family. How on earth that there's person like me existed? Well...I am who I am...I am still the one creature created by God on earth for some purpose. So, however weird I am, or my actions towards my family, I am still the one who come back to visit the most. Well...my brother of course, he wanted to...but he's far...and he needed to earn for the family. My sister? ha...that's even more nonsense...she already engaged in a relationship since young...and every now and then. Will she bother? K.L and Kampar isn't far, and I still hold on to return to hometown, every fortnight.  I don't know why, but I guess...I guess, ok...relationship of boy-girlfriend bonded them to not to return. See? Sacrifices had to be done. One of the family member shall have to hold on, until it's not necessary.

Well...whatever it is... I am still loving them...I am still loving my families, my friends, and my pets.

I wanted to say 'I love you'

It's just I am too shy to say it to,

It's just I am too arrogant to admit

It's just I am too concern for my pride,

It's not I don't want to...

Because every now and then... I still love you.

'I love you'

While waiting for a 15 minutes incubation time...I am here to blog a little bit about today activities... :p

Today is the day, whereby Dr Stc bought us (WC,Wen,Lovelybear,Iris,and me) a great lunch! We had our lunch at Zen, Sunway Pyramid. All along the way, we chat about a lot of item and we were even able to ask her birth date! haha... She was born at 5th of March. Year?! Erm...lets us all don't think about the age... :p

So, the secret unveiled. She's a Pieces...and Wen got it correctly. The rest of us have a different answer...and somehow...Wen is the only one got it correctly...Haha...Well, Wen also has a good sense in guessing... :D

After the excellent lunch at Zen, we headed to the cinema for BOLT (3D)! Woah...(people must be thinking...these fellas...lunch and movie on a working day... damn free!) Haha...well, it had happened. Bolt...what a cute dog with his fellows companion Rhino, the hamster and Mitten, the cat. Watch it...and go for 3D...it's worth for it.

Dr Stc also suggested to have a bbq Christmas at her house on 19 Dec. She just suggested it ouot of a sudden and we are also quite anticipate for it, since she said she don't mind to organise it at her house...(ok..as long as, we all must come early to help her) Haha...well...another surprise by our boss and supervisor! Some more...when we talked about Iris's composing music at her music classes...Dr Stc suggested to have a theme song for Legionella and Coliphage...and it's a NO JOKE. She said she really meant it. She is giving Iris a year time to get it composed! Woah...a song for Leg and Colip? haha :p

well...it's my time up now. Gotta kick back my ass to work...and this is really another historical day...Will this kind of day ever happen again? Erm...I guess not! haha :D

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Could you imagine yourself, sitting at the very last roll in a cinema, taking almost (yea, almost) the best seat overall in the cinema, watching a movie...and the movie named 'Twilight'.

It is definitely by chance that Ruby and I felt that we will have nothing to do, after getting my bf to be service at Ipoh DMM service centre. So, we planned to watch a movie at TGV, Kinta City. Well, we knew from newspaper that Twilight is on at Thursday 27 Nov. So, we are lucky. We watched it on Friday!

What that disgusts me was...not the movie...of course the movie is cool...(I didn't say that it's great)...reactions from the girls in the cinema that disgusted me the most! Why? First of all, I would like this movie to be made a bit violence and more romance scence that made it to be categorise as 18 PL or 18 SG. At least, must be above 18 years old. Why say that? Girls that were in the cinema were all barely 18 and their actions were extremly childish and sucks! OK...I am not saying that every girls who is barely 18 is like that, but I can see those in the cinema with me at that time were acting so! There is this scene, whereby they initially show the hero of the story, named 'Edward acted by Robbert Pattinson...and guess what? All the girls, ok..mostly all the girls, omit Ruby and I, were screaming in a sound of adoring for the character. WTF! Have they seen guys before? My friend and I guessed that they were all from all girls schooling environment, and that's our guessing. How come every scene that showed the hero, made them screamed out the sound, and one particular girl, whom seated right in front of me...even showed a very extreme adoring reaction! She keep in punching, pushing, shaking and even scream at her friend whom seated beside her! She was just too annoying for me! I could not even enjoy the whole movie due to all these side reactions by almost all girls in the cinema. Oh...do I mentioned that mostly those in the cinema were girls as well. And I guess, due to the movie is from a well-known story book named "Twilight", schooling girls were so anticipated to watch it at movie.

Sad to say,...how come they all can behave like this! Shame on them as they acted that they have never been seeing 'leng chai' or handsome guy in the world! They reactions showed that, they have less discipline in controlling their emotion and reaction in public. I guess, what would they react, if the guy that they adore in the movie appear naked in front of them...(I guess all of them either sreamed in wild, passed out, or became so insane that they cried because they saw their hero naked in front of them!) Hahaha,..okok...that's what IF...that's just all assumption...from me! :p

Anyhow, I guess girls should behave nicely when it comes to the adoration part. It's not that you can't adore....it's just do it moderately and make it acceptable. I can accept the fact that these kids were still not mature yet...that's why when they see guys that are so-called handsome...they awwww....and awwwwww....in adoration for the guy...but...not as extreme as the girl who sit in front of me...I pity the friend whom accompany her for movie. Everytime a 'leng chai' came out, she started to lost her control...that's a disorder...I guess the girl need to see some behaviourist! Hahaha...

I am not a desperado

It's been amasing surprise that I got numerous response for just a small post out updates at facebook. My friends asked me what had happened not only via facebook, but also via smses. Wow... This sort of updates really gets a lot of attention especially from girls. Should I say, girls pay more attention to what people's posted shout out?

Well...to tell out frankly in this blog...The is a reason behind the post out. I am not really rejecting someone...I just want someone to know that this is not gonna worked out. I am a person whereby I had set up my target and upon reaching it, I don't really cares of what is happening at my surrounding. You can say that I am sort of...'Loner'...I walk my own way. You can say that I am used to it...I like my living now...You can say I am cruel...I don't want people to get deeper and hard to return. And...one more reason, 'I am not a desperado'. :p I won't rush love and I won't purposely find love. My love is all around...not meaning that love can be only found from bf-gf relationship...Love can be formed in any relationship...be it your family, your friends, your pets and even your surrounding and...of course to your God!

Have you find your love? Are you desperado, or loner? Not to worry...Love will find a way...and I am sure everyone will do. God bless...:D

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Edited**

Thank you to those who feed back that my poetry is great. I will try to produce more...provided I got inspiration... :p kekeke...

Here's da link to my poetry.

Gathering

Well well...after jammed and stucked along the short distance from PJ Hilton to Midvalley, we (wen, woonching, lovelybear and me) finally reached midvalley made our ways to the Garden MV. Hmm...the  short distance costed us exactly an hour...after a cursed from our lovelybear stating that we could be jammed for 1 hour. And wtf...we indeed jammed for 1 hour! Sigh....

While waiting and stucked in the jam...I am so damn sleepy while Wen was on phone conversation and WC was asleep (I am surprise because, it's Wen that mentioned she wanted to sleep, and eventually WC is da one who's sleeping!) Okok...after I noticed that everyone has their own business while lovelybear is driving, I felt that I want to sleep too. I said to lovelybear that I felt sleepy as well and...all of a suddenly...I saw a car which happened to overtake us, has a very cute soft toy displayed. And...what's that very cute soft toy? Of course non other that a cute pig! Haha...but...yes... 'Demo....' someone shouted my name while pointing the pig soft toy! I am from a sleepy mode becoming an alert  mode. I am too shocked that I am a PIG?! Erm...okok...indirectly I am indeed a pig...I am borned in the year of pig and that's all! :p Due to this sudden incident, WC happenly to woke up and  aware of the pointing too...and some more..Wen's friend over the phone also felt the happening incident. I am so speechless...and like wtf... Anyway...it was good as in..after that, all of us were so awaken and we finally reached our destiny after some laughter and  non-sense! (Did I just mentioned non-sense?! Ahaha :D)

Why are we heading to MV? We had a small gathering while it was also to celebrate Iris's birthday in the coming 25th Nov.  Had da celebration at Fong Lye Tea house and we had ourselves very full for the dinner. It's indeed amusing during the dinner time too. Well....gotta check those photos at my FB ac.  I am too lazy to upload it here.:p

Happy birthday Iris...and  best wishe