The feeling of letting go...

Many times, it is always easier to be said than done. This is indeed a truth, for most of us. Especially to me, of course.



Although I must admit, some times, memories did flashes back and dreams still persist! How to forget when one had already been deeply kept inside our heart? How to let go when the heart had kept it securely so that it would not be loosen? And...time... does time always heal when all had happened in the past?



Weird, I had pushed all my anger down to nowhere, just to try to be a better person. However, every recent moves and every recent incidents had caused me to bring up the anger to another level. I had tried my best, to be gentle for not to hurt anyone again...but it seems the more I tried to become another person, the more the hatred is pressured on me.



Hoping the best for you seems so fake from me. Do I really mean it? No! I do not. Deep inside me, there is this inner voice to tell me to not to be pretentious. This inner voice is telling me to start the war, to make everything worse, to cause chaos, to create catastrophe which is against all odds, to not to let go whatever should have been mine. My conscious me is telling me to be rational, to be considerate, to be gentle, to not to create troubles, avoid jealousy, and be more open. Am I able to do this?



I am not being negatively involved with my emotion, and I had been trying to be positive every time I know that subconscious should not be allowed and fully-controlled consciousness must be in place. Nevertheless, letting go still far from what I can image, and harder than what I had tried. Should you appear again in front of me, while you are the initial person whom had rejected me? Yes, and No. I had tried to keep and patch things up, with all my might, Yes, you should have accept it at least just once to indicate that you had let go. I had tried now for making the first step, and you are the one whom had prevented any steps to be taken; which I believe, you are just as similar as me, whom still can't let it go and yet, we are pretentious. Continue to block me in your telecommunication method, any sort of way, to prevent me to take a step further sound like a good choice for you, why do't you still keep that up, and now you don't? I had said I would not call and bother you anymore, which I will keep my promise as I am a person whom keep my words!

Doraemon expo

At last... visited Doraemon expo at Viva Home mall, Kuala Lumpur.



Entrance fees for adult is priced at RM 25 and children at RM 15. The ticket counter is placed near the North wing Level 2 escalator.



The expo is divided into several parts. Entrance shown the birth of Doraemon, which some explanations given on the board on how Doraemon lost his ear, and how did he transformed from a Yellow Robotic cat into a Blue Ear-less Round-headed Robotic cat with Nobita.



Right after that, there are numerous Doraemon figure; each holding and/or with a secret device/gadget from his pocket. At this section, you will be over-whelmed with the lots of Doraemon figure and fascinated with the expression from his face. However, soon, you will found out that most figure had repeating facial expression, just with a different gadget for display.



The organizer had too, placed a few of special photography rooms which one have to queue for entrance and each photo cost at RM 25. These rooms mostly based on Nobita's sleeping room, and Nobita's living room.



There are also some few wall photography which one can play around for photo session. Those are placed at common area and do expect that you will have to queue for your turn.



After all these, there is a merchandise store right before the exit of the expo. You can find most of the Doraemon plush toys, lanyards, keychains, and many more. There are a few counter of fun-fair games which you can play with 2 or 3 tokens. Each token can be purchased from the token counter at the price of RM 2.



There is a cafeteria with a few stores selection of "Doraemon" foods. You can always try the Dorayaki, Doraemon's favorite.There are a few more merchandise available before you completely exit the expo. Finally, exited the expo without purchasing anything and just snapped a few photos.



This expo is from 14th Dec 2013-23rd March 2014. If you happened to be at K.L, just try to visit Doraemon ^.^

Happiness

There is not much that I can do,

For what is done was already a past,

 The least that I can do for now,

Is to sent forth my best wishes to you.

Time...

As long as time is here to be,

These memories will went faded but not forgotten,

As long as these wounds can be seen,

Scars were left well written,



For how it have been long gone?

Time will still be the greatest song,

To heal and to dissolve these sorrows,

To hold and to build better tomorrows,



Wishes could be send without notices,

But at least time had proven to be the best medicine,

Words had never been spoken out,

For it had been deem as the sharpest sword,



May time continue to be here and ever,

As to be the witness for these tears and fears,

As to be the knight for the mighty heart,

As to be the ending for this ache to over.

Steam prawns feast

Steam prawns feast before New Year!

Job hunting?!

Job Hunting...



I would felt that the year of SNAKE is really not so good for those whom are born in the year of BOAR.



For me, it is definitely true that I still have bumpy life ever since in the year of SNAKE.



I did, found a job in the lunar calendar of DRAGON, which is at the favourable side for BOAR. However, ever since then, I have had numerous of bad luck and unfortunate incidents.



I had minor accident which involved me to have knocked a car from behind, causing me to pay quite a hefty amount. I thought that might just unlucky for that day... However, I had yet another accident in which my car being knocked from behind by a sleepy driver early in the morning. The driver had been dragging the compensation and until I stood firm and argue for the value to be paid with the reasoning of "I will make it huge and make an official police report that he is cheating".



Sigh, I thought that might be the end of the bad luck... until one fine day that I decided to park along the road side (because I saw a lot more parking at the same road side). What did I found after I came out from lunch? A nicely attached PDRM summon in which I had been slammed for RM 150 (if it is paid within 7 days) or RM 300 (if it is paid after 7 days). I had to pay as my renewal of road tax is just around the corner. Oh crap! What is even more crappy is that I went for an interview whereby this Prof was too into the STPM result that she had forgotten about the interviewee which she is talking with is holding a Master Degree. I would say that the Prof is too proud with her own achievement that she had lost her basic teaching which is to be humble. If she has no faith with the interviewee where the STPM result was too terrible, she could had opt not to call the interviewee for an interview. This will save time and cost!



Then I received news, that the product which I am dealing with, will no longer be available soon...What does that mean? Hard life for me, if I am still working with the company. No budget, but have to deliver more sales. Sh*t. I should start to look for a job, am I correct?



Therefore, I had started to look for jobs... Hopefully, I am able to find one soon.

Remembering Lucky zai

Watched a movie that shown returning soul to find their loved one for last goodbye.

It makes me remembering Lucky zai, my pet dog.