My 2 cents

Today a conversation between me n a friend turned out to generate this blog for me.

I happen to advice my friends to become more aware that actually there are choices that we need to make in life and it turns out that one simple mistake in making decision will cause a disaster.  My friend msn me saying that she is indeed going to get married, maybe. I am definitely shocked. Okok...I am shocked not because she tell me she want to get married, it's a norm for a girl to get married especially she is dating a boyfriend. I am shocked, becaused she doesn't really knows whom that she want. She is just playing with fire. I am extra worry for her. Of course, that's her life and I am nothing to judge and tell...but it's just my two cents for her. The final verdict is still depends to her. Why I am so uh-huh for the news she is getting married?

1: Her bf is definitely an superb egoitic man according to her. But my friend still dating her...don't ask me, love is blind and I guess it's true :p

Why? This is because how can a guy use the ex(s) as comparisons to the current one. Ok...fair enough, if comparison can make relationship between them is better (I don't know!) then let them go ahead, right? But...wait...there is this thing...what if your bf said something i.e "If I got a daughter, I want to name her lets says 'Beauty'-(name had been changed for privacy and reading purposes)". Erm...I supposed people will questioned why name as Beauty? Any particular excuse? Any speciality? Any reason? And...guess what...?! The reason is...so simplified. "It's because my first love in my life was named Beauty!" I was like wtf...Name the daughter as Beauty because of rememberance of first love?! Can you see the relevancy of the naming? My opinion...ok, my opinion...is that the bf still very much remembered the first love and cannot let her go...that's why name the daughter as the first love's name...to let him remember the first love now and forever.

2: Always compare the ex(s) gf and now.

Ok...Comparison is good..because it makes competition and makes one upgrade herself to be competance...but...this is relationship..and it involved ex...it is much relevance? (Since the bf already broke ups  with the ex(s).

Maybe we will though of comparison of our goodness for the ex(s)  badness is not that ugly looking...but wait...what if...what if you are not really destinied to be with this bf, you broke up with him someday..and eventually he will compare you as one of his ex(s) to the current. Talking bad about previous gf made him looks so cheap. It's not that this will makes the current gf happier...in fact...this is something unethical. Since the broke up had been agreed, why bother to make the comment about it in front of the current gf.

Ermm...lets say...if it happened to be opposite...The bf always talks about how good you are for him...so on so forth...compare to his ex(s)...yet, still there are comparison...it's just at a different angle and it still involved the current and the ex(s). If the ex(s) gf  are so and so in weaknesses...why didn't he accept it slowly and try to love the ex(s) for love's sake, even though there are weaknesses? There is non in the world is perfect! And if the ex(s) had such weaknesses that the bf could not take it, we, might as well have weaknesses that he could not take it as well...and if by these weaknesses aren't acceptable for the bf, is the bf going to break up and find another? Give and take....., right?

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There are a lot more...that can be discussed over here...but i just posted up 2 points, as for sharing. For those who did not agreed on what I had point out, that's wholly my point of view. Each individuals has their different taste and thinking. But, that's my 2 cents.

Eventually, my friend mentioned one phrase that makes me less worried about her life..."I still can choose!"

She still clear about what she really wanted. Obviously, she have not yet found the right one yet! Hehehe...not because I am evil...I wish my friend will have the happiness in their life too...I just hope they'll do...that's why I ask her to think deeply...thinkthoroughly, think as much as they can...take as much time as she wants..to make a decision, whether she wants to marry this bf or not.

"Marriage is fragile in the life of modern people...even though some people still hold ons to their vows...but eventually divorce is becoming the trend of the recent world...to get marry and to get divorce is just a borderline and easily be crossover...there is less or no more boundaries in the marriage life..." `Cheerioet`

Ok...lets make a deal...sooner or later

I finally get the signature from my boss...but sadly the science officer is not in. So, I will only submit on next Wednesday. My discussion with downstair lecturer...Sigh...cause me chaos...Agreed to take me as RA, but haven confirm it with black and white. I am now looking forward for the discussion with Stc on next Monday regarding to the project and as well as hiring me as part time ra or demo. She indeed as me for demo next semester..lets wait for next week to confirm. i am now such a desperado... =="

Well...i will have to make a deal sooner or later...if I have no scholarship, it's definitely a no-no..as what friends had told me before"...must get a scholarship to study..." so...i guess if not, i am going to look for a job while looking again for postgrad. lets see...how it goes....

 

God Bless Me....

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OMG...I am so devastated by today's news. I received a very bad news. What the heck on earth is going on. Previously I heard that there will be a 30k fees exempted. I also heard some people throwing advice not to lay out so a lot of hope as this so and so school always not into their words. Promises just remain empty promises. Never been succeed. And now, how true it was! The fact is that hope have been planted and now slowly it faded. I am both disappointed and frustrated and at the same time fear. I have fear thinking for the few weeks and the coming month. What am I suppose to do? I am now so lost and out of point. I need something to lead me to focus. What am I suppose to do?

I need to restart once again. Now with a harder and stronger stroke. I have not much time left. My contract will be ending end of this year. I will lost a job and become unemployed soon...too soon. I need something to back up all my expenses as well as to support my family. Sigh. I am going to have a great trouble that created by myself and I am now needing to mend it before any nightmare begin. Argh.....This is so depressing.

Pray for me, my dear friends, that I can get up on my feet again...to walk along the way. Pray for me, my dear friends, that I can be the best I used to be. Pray for me, my dear friends, that I will survive this disaster and pray for me, my dear friends, that I am strong enough to carry and endure this pain.

**Sorry, I am indeed too not in the straight mind at this current moment. I need time to calm down and calm down.**

Me...cute?!

Does it really matter if you look cool, cute, naive,  cocky or t you can think of to describe a person? For me, yes. It's definitely a yes. Some people are born with a nice sweet and loving face. They are ever adorable through other's eyes. Some are appear cocky, but eventually they are not. Some are just too fierce to be near to. Some are just too kiddo and some are looking a way too cool in everything they do.

So, which kind of category that you and I falls into? I couldn't tell you by myself, which category I am into. I could not made a judgement to myself as I am not seeing myself. It all depends to those who get to see you, know you and eventually becomes close to you.

Since young, I have been labelled as a cool and hot temper person. My friends always advice me not to be so hot-tempered as they don't want to see me having heart-attack  in the future ==" . Well...those words sound heart breaking, but it's somewhat true. I can get angry easily and I won't be giving face to any of them. I don't care what the heck they are, all I care is  who the hell am I. That's why, friends that are with me since young had get used to it and they can't even bother. Sometimes they are even scared to talk to me, because of this kind of attitude that has been blended very well in me. Did I get rid of it? Nope, I guess I just hide it well in recent times!

Maybe this is because of immature thinking, maybe this is because of self-defencing, maybe this is because of childish, and there are lots and lots of reason that hidden behind. I wouldn't know...cause I am born with it. It took me years to grow and realise that attitude needs to be shaped. Bad attitude, hot temper and those falls into negative category are really indeed troublemaker. To avoid such, we really need to learn how to control. Whenever we take control of some situation, we gain patience and  gradually, we learn to behave.

Recently, I get a very unique reply. Someone said I look cute! I was like OMG. I have get used to be labelled as cool, not cute. And now the word cute came out! Haha...I guess I really changed dramatically. Some of my primary and secondary schoolmates had noticed about the change and they are really amazed. I am actually thanking them for asking me to control my hot-temper since we are friends. The influences by peer are really damn important and it's proved to be true for me!

Well, recently also, I found out that the people at the surrounding becomes so cute and so funny. Some of them are even born with such cute attitude and face that you can't even let yourself to scold them or raise up your voice to them. Their appearance and their behaviour is definitely amusing and with such a person existing in your daily life, will eventually brighten your days! Haha...I really meant it. I can't find a reason why I must not laugh of felt funny. Well, this is also a kind of blessing by God, that my days are ensured to be brighten, even though I am now facing crisis. I couldn't find a reason to frown :D

How cute is the person(s)? Well, I can't used words to describe. You need to see by yourself.  I even only use one verse to describe the person 'cute cute de'. That's all I can think of. Haha. My friend even want to befriend with such a cute person after listening to my one verse only. I guess my friend is too eagerly to get to know with the cute one. :p In addition to it, this cute person everyday something fresh and funny to amuse me. I can't help but to laugh or even made fun of the person . (OKOK, I may sounds so bad, when I said I even made fun of the person. But, It's true. The person is damn too funny and cute already!)

So, do you believe also that the cute person shares the same behaviour as mine? There were incidents that we happen to show out the same behaviour, same word and same respond! (OMG, I know this sounds so spooky or suspicious to some of you,  but this is true). I felt the coincidences were too coincidence. It's like a shadow or a replicate of me in behaviour, even though the person is cute! It's been a fourth time...and I believe there will be more coming soon! :p Well, maybe this person  is a long lost siblings of mine ...hehe :p

Coming back to the main point, this person describe me in a total opposite of what my friends has been labelled me for. Totally opposite, Ok. I was like, are you kidding me? I never been heard such an opposite term to describe me. From cool or maybe cocky or even maybe not friendly (to those who didn't get to know me well) to become a cute and friendly person...Swt...Don't misunderstood me. It's not about relationship by the description. It's just I felt it funny when this person known me as a cute person and in fact I am not!

Anyway, I am indeed changed from what I am in the past. Friends whom know me since young should have know better. I am glad that my changes have bring out happiness and laughter to all of you. I didn't kept in heart of the heart-attack thing. It's good that friends, you all had woke me up. I am also glad that I dare to take up chances to make the change. I didn't realise that life can be better with a better attitude, until the moment friends let me know that  they are enjoying my presence! I am  absolutely grateful that I have all of you as my friends too. Maybe this sounds a bit like those who write back at secondary or even in high school. But, I don't care much. I treasure the friendships, I cheerish the moments every now and then.

Friends

It's been like a routine for me, ever since I am out from hometown to study and now to work. What that routine that I mentioned? Go out 'yum cha' with friends is like a must to me. I guess this is important as we grow older, the opportunity  to meet up with friends  is getting less and less day by day. I guess I should be thanking God for the blessing to have friends that are still keeping in touch with me  ever since we depart  after schooling year. Well, I must admit that these are hard to find friends that you will treasure every moment you spend with them. Who  know that maybe by the time  each and every one of them has their own family and life must goes on by them without realizing that they had let go something in between of life.

I am not saying that all whom I got to meet up are all still single and that's what makes us so eligible to meet up. Even those who had been dating for years will still keep in touch with classmates and schoolmates... but then chance to have often small gathering with them is low. Well, that's their commitment towards their relationship and scarification had to be made by them. However, it's very subjective. Some friend can keep up a balancing life between their relationship with their loved one and their friends. That would be ideal if we would not wants to keep either one party out of our life. Anyhow, not many can make such a rational and logical thinking when it comes to  relationship. It depends.

To have friends come and go in life is like a norm. Whatever friends type you are, and whatever friends type you have, every moment counts and more importantly, we participate in the process. To my friends, thank you and thank you once again.

Using Digi Edge

Ok...officially this is the first post by me, using this new internet provider-Didi Edge. I have much trouble to get the configuration setting done, and after numerous of calling to the customer service provider, and also numerous of smsing and deleting existing setting, Finally...Finally, I can get connected and surf thru my mobile as modem and am using my notebook as usual.

I will be going to get da usb wireless broadband modem soon. I dont want to spoil my phone. Even tho it's just 3110c, but it's been really useful to me since last year, from the time I bought it. It still serve me well. Thank God for that.

I am planning and going to change service provider for my mobile. Using MNP is so much easier than what I had thought before. It not only allow you to keep back you existing number, but also allow your switching withing less than 24 hours(FYI-it happen to my sister's mobile number. they swifted the provider in the same application day!). Well, as for me, I might be changing to prepaid plan, instead of postpaid. Oh...I forgot to mentioned. I am changing from hotlink to digi... thats why I twittered, changing to da D' man. haha... Kota kemuning berjaya park is definitely   covered by Digi. When we mentioned berjaya park, the Digi centre dealers confirm the coverage area immediately.

I still miss the speed provided by streamyx last time. Even tho sometimes it runs slowly like slower than snail, but the stability gives you the advantages. Wireless will have disconnection suddenly. I had iit once juzt now. I am not sure how well it goes. Am now trying to download large file from sendspace. Let's see how it goes. Streaming? Youtube? Hmm...I haven try that out. Wait until I have the time and also have da mental. Currently, there are a lot of things going on...and I have restless mind. OMG...restless..did I mentioned restless?

The time now is around 12 40 am. I guess I should sleep. I should sleep...

Two of Chalices

I read with surprise that some tarot reading about me for today is quite true!? It says:

Card: Two of Chalices

The Two of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in compromise. I am not alone. I offer and accept love, support, and happiness to connect with the pleasure and beauty of my hearts desire. There are two sides to everything and I don't always have to be right. I am empowered by expression and my gift is attraction.


HELP...help...!!!Ok. no doubt that I am really bored now. I am trapped in the lab due to heavy rain. It's pouring outside and I think anyone can hardly pass through -walking without getting wet. All because I needed to make a careful chemiluminescent detection using the new Chemidoc XRS, I missed out the opportunity to go home early. Although now it's only 5pm...It looks like it's 7pm outside. **Sigh**