I can still...

I can still hear the laughter,
Which both of us shared together,
The sweetest memory ever,
That I will keep forever,

I can still see the smile,
That is so tender and mild,
Which captured my eyes upon you,
And it happened out of the blue,

I can still taste the sweetness,
Which slowly turned to bitterness,
And fear all surrounding me,
I felt trapped in the wanna be,

I can still sense the touch,
That is so soft and smooth,
Yet torns are hidden in between,
And try to show up their own glimp,

I can still feel the pain,
Which left me in darkness and vain,
And I felt hopeless all the way,
Without you to guide my way,

I can still see the hope,
That you had promised to leave for me,
And I am still searching for the truth,
In your lies that forever in my memory.

How you react when some one you love asked you to leave,
What would you do since your heart is in pain and grief,
Would you stop hopping and walk away?
Or would you continue on dreaming by the means to stay?

How could that your love hurt you so?
Isn't that suppose to be sweet and tender?
How could your love ask you to go?
Isn't love is now and ever?

Could you take away all your sorrow?
Leave the darkness aside and make a better tomorrow,
Could you be standing tall again?
Try to do your best and by God's grace; you can.

What an ugly experience!!!

Today my sister and I went to this; one of the well-known cakes delight cafe called SR to dine in during fast-breaking time. What an experience. We ordered plain water from them and they insisted us to take "sirap" instead because they don't have any spare cup, glass or whatever to serve us the plain water. So we agreed to take the "sirap" as they hardly can provide one during that time. After much observation at the table around us, there were mostly occupied by those who wanted to break fast. Well, I guess it's a norm to see such thing during fasting season. I saw those from the table opposite my sight ask for another "sirap" and I know it because theopposite table is actually very near to us...and my sister's back facing their dine table. So, I guess that they can provide this FOC "sirap" for upon request maybe as their month of promotion or something like that? My sister's friend go ahead and ask one of the waiter if there is any refill upon request. The waiter answered yes but we have to wait to be served because they're all buzy serving other customers. We nodded ok..and we waited for the refill patiently. Minutes by minutes gone and there was no sight that the waiter will be serving us the refill so I decided to ask the manager who was just in time passing by about our refill. He quickly answered "Sorry, we DO NOT provide any refill". Feeling cheated, we ask them why would they answered Yes in the first place since they do not provide refill. Are they looking down on us as we don't have enough money to pay? Or are they serving based on skin colour, since most of them are there to break fast...and they are even served with some kurmas for any dine-in and take away. Is it because we are not fasting and we cannot take the kurma? Is it because we are not fasting we cannot ask for any refill? Since they do not provide refill, why do i saw and heard they table opposite me (behind my sister) ask for another and they gave them as soon as possible? I simply cannot believe that there is still some place which is similiar to the highly distributed e-news online about one of the fast food chain namely PizzaH. They were once believe to be racist as they put in the race column in their bill and the sender who attached the bill insisted that they are actually doing the column for their convenience to charge the customer bill. They will have no service charge for those stated with "M" in the column and there will be service charge for those with other initial such as "C", "I" and etc. What do they mean?
There were also ugly Malaysian attitude to be shown as before my sister and I decided to dine in SR, we tried out others such as MF, PizzaH, NanD and etc for walk-in dine-in. They insisted us to find other place as they are full. All we saw were empty places even without the sign "Reserved" and they said it was full. They apologised saying that they wanted to give priority to those who wanted to break fast as the time is near. I was like.."WTF" How can they be like that? Didn't they have first-come first-served base? SH!T. They are just ruining Malaysian tolorence and harmony.If there is anymore third incident that happen to show that we Malaysian is actually still pratising second class citizenship; it mean we are actually not yet independent although we're celebrating so.We are lying to ourselves.
Wake up Malaysians, wake up!!! Is it because our origin is from other we are classified as secondclass citizen? If so, why we are called Malaysian?

Voice

When a soft voice spoke to me,
I drew near to it,
I try to listen of what it reads,
I wants to ask for who is it,

The whisperer countinue to speak,
It caught my attention to seek,
I search for the voice in the mist,
It is hard but Itry my best,

In a sudden the voice stop,
Replaced by a melodious song,
It is so harmony and peaceful,
Oh, how sweet and beautiful,

There came the voice again,
Clearer and nearer to me,
Instinct tell me I shall now begin,
To ask who will it be?

Do not be afraid and come to me,
The voice sound like a master it seems,
Give me your hand and I shall lead,
And off I go walking through the beams,

How warm and strong the hand that brings me,
I look upon and there I see,
How marvelous the place can be,
How magnificient the view I see,

Love is what I felt,
And the sound of joy is what I heard,
The voice came to me,
And said this is where I live,

Remember the kingdom I bring you,
There is no secret hidden from you,
Faithfully when you ask and seek,
And there you shall receive,

I am truly puzzled and confused,
Of what the whisperer said,
Bravely I ask of who,
I ask for where I am being taken to,

Look and remember where I bring you,
And here you shall stay in my kingdom,
It is all because I love you,
I brought you out for the sake of freedom,

Slowly to my realise,
Whom the voice is,
Whom the whisperer are,
Whom the hand belongs to,

Oh how stupid am I, my master,
Forgive me of my rudeness,
How ungrateful am I, my saviour,
Forgive me of my unthoughfulness,

May my peace be with you my brothers and sisters,
May my peace with you all my people,
May you found favour in me,
And life of everlasting it shall be,

These were the sentences I heard,
Before I came to conscious,
Join me and believe in this shepherd,
Also the lamb which is so precious.

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This is seriously an original writing by SP. Thank you.

Depends of wat title u wan!!!

Can u really trust a fren? For me, my trust to a fren depends to da personality of the fren.During the youth period...i alwiz thought that fren is your most trustable person in your life..coz they not only will help you to keep your very own secret from your parents..but also help you to keep trouble away. My principle for my fren is very simple n clear. I am their fren..and alwiz their fren. Even though I felt hurt wen my fren left me because of betrayal..and also disroyalty. Some fren are juz so mean. They dun even wanna bother you wen they had their own fren..whom were thought to be better than you. And whenever you r feeling down and sad..the rest juz turn you down..and who else do you think of in this time? Of cos..the fren that you had betrayed. I had seem too many kinds of fren...that make me so sick of pretender. I couldn't help but juz to stand firm in my new principle in making fren..which is...whoever you can trust to be a fren...can be you fren..but those you doubted..don't even think of it. That's why..nowadays..my surrounding...r full of those who only wanna be fren wif you..becoz they thought you r worth to be fren..bcoz you have the value to be fren..n becoz you had the potential to be used and betrayed. That's all.. It's a dog eat dog world..even when making fren..without any doubt is so hard. Tell you frankly..I myself had experience the ugliest friendship for until this very moment. But then..because of my first principle of being fren..i still forgive and forget.. Am I really forgetting? No!!! If I had forgotten about it..how can I know I experienced such kind of friendship. But well...Thank God..I still have real n true fren that treat you with all of their heart better than their other half. I really appreciate those friendship than all of you had showered me. Continue on to be my fren. I will alwiz love to be your fren. Juz one important note is that..dun ever used me for your own importance...unless I am willing to do so..I am happy n glad to help you..my fren...whenever..whether you nid me..or dun nid me...juz remember to remember me n keep this fren of yours (ME) in your heart. Betrayal is hard to handle..n it hurt deeper than you thought. Dear frens...dun try to think that there will alwiz be second chance ...opportunity knocks...but not twice.. Frens may come n go... but true n real fren..will alwiz stay...no matter wat happen..(except of betrayal n used fren for something bad). Think back...dun you have sweet memories of being a fren with your fren. If you really appreciate your fren... REMEMBER... Friends Are Forever...!!!!Whoever still remember me as their fren...Thank you!!!I love you and May God bless you.

Happy Merdeka!!!

For Malaysian..31st August each yr remark the anniversary of independent day n wat most important is the malaysian is born wif the formation of 3 major races..malay, chinese, indian,bumiputras from borneo and many other. 31st August oso is da memorail of the late Princess Diana... 31st August is really a remembrance of joy and sadness...
For tis 50th birthday ...i would like to wish all malaysian happy merdeka...and be proud to be malaysian... (although sometimes i still felt dat some of us still being classified as second class citizen :p)
Yet..we should not forget about the death of Princess Diana whom she was killed in da accident in Paris in the year 1997. May god bless Her and may she rest in peace.
Lets us join hearts in prayer for both Malaysia and Princess Diana....

Ugly Malaysia public transport

1stly i nided to say that how worse malaysia public transport is especially those express bus. a few days before my dad took bus from kpr to k.l n required to return to kpr on da same day. so, me n my sis went to k.l pudu express bus station n at there we met tis ugly malaysian attitude. we ask for da ticket nicely n smile wif them..they in return pretend like no one is purchasing ticket. And wen return to da counter to ask da man wat is da bus no..n why still haven reached because we had waited for half an hr..n da bus was scheduled to take off at 8.00. I m so pissed off..by that attitude wen da man reply..u juz wait there n wait for those ppl shout-la..i dun care. I was like..'dam man..why on earth hav such kind of ppl' I still nid to thx him coz he still considered answered my question.
Tis is not da 1st time dat i had face such a manner by those ticket seller, conductor bus and bus driver..all of them r really sux. I once took a bus from Ipoh bek to Kpr..n there were tis old lady whom didn't noe bahasa n juz simply hitch on for da bus ride. She wanted to go to Jalan Kpr n she took a bus which stated IPOH-KPR EXPRESS..which mean..da bus driver n da conductor will surely scold tis old lady for da mistake. Yes..indeed they bully tis old lady because she cant read bahasa..they dun even imediately drop her at nearby bus stop..they juz simply ask da old lady to buy da ticket to gopeng n ask her to go gopeng there take another bus bek to jln kpr..nobody at there dare to scold da bus driver..coz da old lady oso was guilty in not asking where the bus destination..but da main point is da bus driver..an indian..in a very rude manner scolding da old lady is da focus point. Yes..yes..we noe da old lady was guilty..n we ord scolded her..so we let her go-la..why the heck was that driver insisted not to drop her n ask her to take another terror ride? and who dare to stand up in dat situation since da indian driver is in charge...wat if he doesn't like n da whole bus got bang..n dat's the end?
Very recently we heard express bus accident again n again..involving reckless bus driver..I was like..how do da employer employ driver? they juz simply employ because the traffic offender is in cheaper in cost..or they r juz lack of bus driver..? Whatever da point is...we r still in da conclusion..dat we r indeed ugly malaysian!!! Kudos..Malaysian...u once Malaysia boleh again.. -Boleh in bad manner n boleh in bad public transport..which in tis case i juz touched bout bus..wat bout other? all r lousy..My boss say..it was a total disaster..n teribble.. So, wat bout u?

Life is...Headache!!!

I am in such a miserable situation when my boss said that I need to attend a workshop on 23rd and 24th of August. The first thing that flash in my mind was-my convocation will be held in August too. I frankly answered my boss that I need to confirm the convocation date with the university so that I would got myself in trouble IF the date crash. I called UMT and they proudly said that the convocation date is yet to be confirm, please call again next week to check. I called and called in the following and the following and the following date..until I fed up. Why on earth that they need so much time to confirm a date? Isn't that is too obvious that they did not do any preparation for one of the university biggest event? I was like "Oh my gosh!!!". July 2007 is coming to its end and August is around the corner and the convocation date? I am now praying avary day and night that the convocation date will not be in 25th August and prayerfully that it will be in 18th August. I am here, beg all of you my friends, join with me to pray..that my prayer will be answered. Thank you in advance and God bless you.

When you felt cold and freezing,
Remember that the House of Lord is waiting
The door is always opening
For us to join the gathering
Cause our Lord is good and kind
That He wouldn't left us alone in hard time